Cool stuff about exercise is it gives you back parts of your life if you let it.
For about 20 years I haven't been able to get up on a chair. You know when you can't reach something you pull up a chair and get it. Well I have had to get a step ladder or get someone else to do it for me. (hated that) But this week I got new curtains for my bedroom pulled up a chair and put them up. It was so cool to be able to just step and down. Very Happy!
I WILL FIGHT FOR ME
Thursday, July 25, 2013
Sunday, July 21, 2013
Exercise and My Goals
A question I have been asked by several people is what are my goals. Depending on who's asking decides which ones we are talking about. In this case it is with regards to my weight. All along I have been saying my goal is to be fit. And I have to confess that is not completely true. If I was to be honest with myself I do want to be fit but I also really care about the number on the scale. I want a number to be proud of. I want a body and figure to be proud of before I die. The last time I really felt like that I was a teenager. For a variety of reasons and events after that I started to hide myself. I became afraid. Now I can't really afford to do that any more.
It's time to get my head in shape and my body will follow.
I WILL FIGHT FOR ME
It's time to get my head in shape and my body will follow.
I WILL FIGHT FOR ME
Thursday, July 18, 2013
Sunday, June 30, 2013
The Luxury of Bullshit
The luxury of bullshit. I know what the hell is that. It is what I call what cancer has done to my everyday thinking.
The luxury of bullshit is what you have before you are told you have cancer. After that, if I wanted to survive I had to let go of all the bullshit. You know the shit you tell yourself that stops you being, the best you can be.
It comes with the idea we have a limited time left. It might not happen to everyone but it did me. This last year two major things have happened. One I was told I have breast cancer and the second I had decided to get healthy just before my diagnosis. Both items are inter-connected and strangely, I couldn't have done without the other. What the hell does that have to do with bullshit you ask. Well, to deal with the cancer; I decided to face it head on, eyes wide open to all of it, good and bad. My treatment plan is pretty hard core. As a result to be successful I could no longer lie to myself I had to see me for me. This ended up being the best thing for my second goal to get healthy. The only reason I was overweight was, that I was bullshitting myself everyday. I was holding myself back from being the best Mary Beth there is, just because of fear. Silly but very real fears. So thank you to cancer and eliminating the luxury of bullshit. I am 3/4 of my way through cancer treatment and 3/4 way to my first very major goal weight in 35 years.
No more hiding!
I have a group of people that have been outstanding support - you know who you are. All my love to you. xoxoxoxox
I WILL FIGHT FOR ME
The luxury of bullshit is what you have before you are told you have cancer. After that, if I wanted to survive I had to let go of all the bullshit. You know the shit you tell yourself that stops you being, the best you can be.
It comes with the idea we have a limited time left. It might not happen to everyone but it did me. This last year two major things have happened. One I was told I have breast cancer and the second I had decided to get healthy just before my diagnosis. Both items are inter-connected and strangely, I couldn't have done without the other. What the hell does that have to do with bullshit you ask. Well, to deal with the cancer; I decided to face it head on, eyes wide open to all of it, good and bad. My treatment plan is pretty hard core. As a result to be successful I could no longer lie to myself I had to see me for me. This ended up being the best thing for my second goal to get healthy. The only reason I was overweight was, that I was bullshitting myself everyday. I was holding myself back from being the best Mary Beth there is, just because of fear. Silly but very real fears. So thank you to cancer and eliminating the luxury of bullshit. I am 3/4 of my way through cancer treatment and 3/4 way to my first very major goal weight in 35 years.
No more hiding!
I have a group of people that have been outstanding support - you know who you are. All my love to you. xoxoxoxox
I WILL FIGHT FOR ME
Friday, June 14, 2013
2/3rd's of the way
Yippee I am now two thirds of the way through treatment.
Healing from radiation took longer than expected. I had quite the radiation burn. It sounds funny but the inside of my breast (boob) is sore and tender. The bounce is not good :). I have started swimming, aquasize, which I love great for my hips and legs but some of the bouncing hurts even in the water. I tried a new swim suit which is a sports suit and it's ok while it's dry but once we are wet :(
Everyone in radiation was just lovely. I have meet some amazing people. At your last radiation appointment you get to ring a bell. (popular ritual) any way I had gone to the appointment alone and wasn't going to bother but my radiation tech said, "oh yes we are, this is important and a way to release and move forward". So she came with me and I rang the bell, everyone in the waiting room cheered. She was right I am very grateful to her.
Healing from radiation took longer than expected. I had quite the radiation burn. It sounds funny but the inside of my breast (boob) is sore and tender. The bounce is not good :). I have started swimming, aquasize, which I love great for my hips and legs but some of the bouncing hurts even in the water. I tried a new swim suit which is a sports suit and it's ok while it's dry but once we are wet :(
Everyone in radiation was just lovely. I have meet some amazing people. At your last radiation appointment you get to ring a bell. (popular ritual) any way I had gone to the appointment alone and wasn't going to bother but my radiation tech said, "oh yes we are, this is important and a way to release and move forward". So she came with me and I rang the bell, everyone in the waiting room cheered. She was right I am very grateful to her.
Thursday, May 30, 2013
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